lately has been terrible 0.0 very terrible... makes me look so pathetic 0.0 gawd can't help it anymore... everything is just a screw up... how long do i have to keep up with this crap... im sick of it... cutting cutting... thanks to that friend who checked on how i was doing... for some reason he's the only one who seems to understand or someone who really cares... was able to get over it a little... he's always there at the right place and time... for some reason i don't even know why im putting up with this... just want to get drunk, smoke packs and and kill something >.> just so terrible so terrible... im forgetting myself again... bah.. i don't even know what to think about anymore... damnit... just so sick of this....